Dear God:
Be with me today as once again I find myself wondering why I must do this all alone in this world. Of course when I say alone, I mean without another human being I can count on to be a teammate with me. I know my God that you are always with me and I know that ultimately You are the ONLY one who is there for me and will never let me down. 

But remember that I am human too dear God and that I long for someone who will love me for me and accept me for me. I ask that if it is your will, please send  that man into my life who will bring out the best in me, give me support, understand me, and help heal these deep wounds. Help me to recognize him and embrace him with the love I once gave an unworthy soul who abused it and threw it away. I pray that today you give me the strength and hope to live my life as you will and to it's fullest. I am weak now dear God. I am crushed and broken and I'm having the hardest time getting back up this time. Part of me wants to surpass and succeed all those that have doubted my good will and the other part of me wants to just give up once and for all. Why do I make these choices that end up hurting ME?! You know dear God that most of the time I make these choices with the intention of good and trying to be as you will me to be. I suffer. I suffer in great depth from all the hurts, yet I am expected to forgive. I don't want to forgive some people. I especially find it hard to forgive the one who took the most of me and spit on me in the end. How can a human being hurt someone like that? How can they have no conscience and no sense of sight to see that they are setting the person that has loved them the most on fire?? And then I am supposed to rise from the ashes? I guess that's where you come in God. I am totally depending on you to put me back together, guide me in the direction I need to go from here, and give me the strength and hope to get back up and keep trying to live and find the peace I need in order to attain the greatness you have planned for me. I ask you in Jesus' name to hear my cry for help and rescue me from the raging waters that are drowning me. Amen